God always has one of three responses when we prayerfully seek Him.

Yes.

No.

Wait.

Here we are. Waiting.

My body is functioning as it should be, and I am not pregnant. That's my answer: wait.

I am thankful for the growth and the ability to look at newborn pictures on facebook and completely and freely celebrate with those momma's with those babies in their arms. I delight in them. Its funny how the very thing you avoided for a while is the thing that seems to be like a soothing balm to my heart.

Because lets be honest. I have a lot of friends who have suffered this loss. I have a lot of friends who when I get a text or phone call from a silent, oh please, Lord, not another negative test. But they keep coming, and its all in the way you look at it, I suppose.

Even when I see the negative test, I am positive this is still part of God's great plan.

I am positive its all in His hands.

I am positive He is faithful.

I am positive that in His timing, I will see a positive test.

It still hurts, this I am positive of too.

But I am positively healing and ready for the day that the Lord answers mine and my dearest friends desire with a big, healthy, chubby cheeked, YES!!!

I am trying to see this less as an obstacle and more of an opportunity...to grow...trust...to soak in every minute with Tim and Gracie. To just be...Three.

Holley Gerth says in her book, "You Are Already Amazing"-
We've been made perfect-but we're still in the process of being made holy. God's goal in our lives in growth.

* Perfectionism is all or nothing.
* Growth is little by little.
* Perfectionism is all about the goal.
* Growth is all about the journey.
* Perfectionism is about outward appearances.
* Growth is about what happens inside.
* Perfectionism is about what we do.
* Growth is about who we're becoming.

The path of the righteous is like the morning sun, shining ever brighter till the full light of day. Proverbs 4:18

Growth- I am positive its happening.